Monday, March 19, 2012

Jealousy - Poem

P.S.
by Jewel

I wrote those nice
poems only because
the honest ones
would frighten you

 

What she is saying is people lie, because the truth hurts. People lie to their parents, their friends, their teachers and the list goes on. I know I have lied; good and bad. I have lied to not get caught, but I have also lied to protect someone so they don't get hurt or their secret is not revealed. Be careful though, lying can get you in a bad position.

I'm tired

I'm tired of always being tired. I'm tired of waking up early for school. I'm tired of the LP attendance policy. I'm tired of walking the long crowded hall ways. I'm tired of always being yelled at. I'm tired of fake people. I'm tired of not being free of parents. I'm tired of homework. I'm tired of this cold weather. I'm tired of living in Utah. I'm tired of being alone.

SHE LEAVES..



I'm tired of my emotions being played with. I'm tired of not being able to do what I want, when I want. I'm tired of my iPhone battery not lasting all day. I'm tired of wondering. I'm tired of worrying if someone will leave, just walk away..

HE LEAVES..



EVERYONE LEAVES

Sleep

When I'm awake; I dream of life, my future; college, a family. I wonder what my husband will look like, I wonder how many kids I will have, or where I will live or go to collage. I wonder about things as simple as tomorrow, will I meet someone new that will change my life, or will something bad happen and make me cry?!

I'm scared for tomorrow..

When I sleep; I dream of money and boys and fame. I also dream of something chasing me and having no voice. I scream and scream, but no sound comes out. I have nightmares of being tortured and dying.

I'm scared of tonight..

 

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

I'm no robot

I know I'm human because I cried when Jake Randall died. I cried when I watched The Notebook and Titanic. I know I'm human because when I fall or get a bruise it hurts. I know I'm human because I have felt love, and felt a broken heart. I know I'm human because if I wasn't I couldn't drive a car, or kiss a boy, or even fight with my best friend or sister. I know I'm human because I have 2 legs, 2 arms, eyes, ears and a functioning body to let me walk around and function. I know I'm human because I judge others, all humans judge no matter what they say. I know I'm human because..



I KNOW I'M HUMAN, I AM NO ROBOT!

Courage - My bones

My bones say I am sore. My bones say stay in bed and don't get ready for school. My bones say stay quite, NO. speak up and stand out. My bones say stop, they say go; run the light. My bones say make a change, NO; BE THE CHANGE!

My bones say go for it, you only live once, but they also say no; I'm done being hurt.

Falling

Imagine you just jumped out of a plane..

I just jumped out of a plane. All I see are specks (houses, cars, buildings, etc) clouds and my best friends falling right beside me. I'm thinking this is scary, but almost relaxing. I have so much adrenalin rushing through me.

I don't know how people do this all the time.

I feel like I'm as light as a feather. I'm kinda worried my parachute won't open and I might break both my legs while landing. I wonder if anyone will visit me when I end up in the hospital with 2 broken legs..

Now reread everything I just said and relate it to love

Jumping out of a plane is the same thing as love. It's scary, but almost relaxing. You are scared to put yourself out there and get hurt, but once you do, sometimes it is nice and relaxing.

Life and Death

I learned very early that life is not fair, so I got over it
All men are not created equal no matter what they say
It won't do you any good if you stew and have a fit
Differences in out lives are as different as night and day

All women aren't born equal, some born with blonde hair,
Whose good looks will bring them fortune and even fame
While other women are built more like a sturdy Mack truck
Will be lucky if they ever even have a dollar to their name

The point is that we are as different as the snow flakes,
Although the flakes are similar no two are exactly the same
Mother nature likes variety it is called the spice of life
Flowers come in rainbow colors more than we could name

So I figured out that god takes in consideration all these variation
And he gives out extra points for hardness of the lot in life we draw
He throws in a pinch of mercy because after all we are his creation
He polishes each and every one of us until we no longer have a flaw

A diamond before it is cut and polished looks like a ordinary stone
You would have to see it's hidden potential with discerning eyes
The trick is to cut and polish up it's facets until it's beauty is shown
God the master of craftsman, knows just where that your beauty lies

So life is not fair my friend, you might just as well get used to it
Life is a crap shoot at a best, your trip down here is a game of chance
All one can do is hope and pray that when it is time this life to quit
That on our trip back home we will have our time to sing and dance

Black And White Rainbow